sunryze Posted January 18 Share Posted January 18 On 12/21/2023 at 1:46 PM, UCyborg said: Sorry to hear that. It's such a time waste. Every day, same s***, it just doesn't end. Days turn into months, months into years and you start to wonder what's the point. At least during school there's some decent time off. Onto another thing, my phone's power button suddenly almost stopped working. Before I got out of the car after I got home, I went to turn off the Bluetooth, it was still normal, then 2 hours later I could barely wake it up. Not sure what now, may have to start looking for a new one. Hoped I would get some more years out of it. Even if I manage to take it apart somehow, no way I'm putting it back together successfully. Sigh, should probably at least adb pull data partition. Edit: False alarm, the button started working, so a temporary (software) glitch? Very strange. The job is fine, retail just takes a lot of energy. When I am working in the back it's nice though. The job gave me money to get a much needed platform upgrade. I now have a 7800X3D, 32GB DDR5-CL30, and a B650 board. Runs very nice and its an absolute monster of a system now. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
XPerceniol Posted January 18 Author Share Posted January 18 (edited) I've taken note of some things about myself as of late - trying to accept myself and my shortcomings. I think one big huge part that has helped me lately is (fully) accepting and embracing the fact that I am antisocial. I think I want it to be that way in this brutal society and best to stay within my own bubble. Edited January 18 by XPerceniol Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
D.Draker Posted January 18 Share Posted January 18 3 hours ago, XPerceniol said: I think one big huge part that has helped me lately is (fully) accepting and embracing the fact that I am antisocial. No offence, you're quite chatty for someone anti-social. Maybe you meant anti-socialist? (misspelling) 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
XPerceniol Posted January 18 Author Share Posted January 18 No I did mean anti-social. What you see online from me is not at all the real me in real life which is what I was talking about. I'm very awkward around people in real life, but I could be wrong because I have never officially gotten that diagnosis from a doctor, but I am on the autism spectrum so they can sometimes get mixed up. I could be wrong, but I still think I'm not good around people anymore and I DID used to be social when I was in my 20's but I'm not at all the same guy I was then. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
NotHereToPlayGames Posted January 18 Share Posted January 18 I'm basically the same way. But that is what growing up is supposed to be like, in my opinion. If you do the same "social scene" in your 40s, 50s, 60s, 70s that you did when you were in your 20s, then you "stopped growing" in your 20s. To each their own, of course. I do know a lot of people that "party" like they were still 20 and those people will never retire and have any form of "golden years". I've been told I have aspergers, decades ago when that's what they called it, so be it, look up the famous people that have had it, I'll take their company any day. No brain scan verification, just "social cues" and people in the field say I should get the brain scan. I *refuse to*. Social cues aside, I am "high functioning" and do quite well for myself. So call me anything you want, if you feel you have to put a label on everything, including the label maker, just don't call me late for dinner - 'cause I never turn down a free meal. What was the question again? Oooh, look, a squirrel! 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dixel Posted January 19 Share Posted January 19 Fire your doctors! By our Nordic standards, you both are over-chatty and extremely sociable. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Karla Sleutel Posted January 20 Share Posted January 20 15 hours ago, Dixel said: our Nordic standards I'm Nordic too. 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
UCyborg Posted January 20 Share Posted January 20 (edited) On 1/18/2024 at 4:28 PM, sunryze said: The job gave me money to get a much needed platform upgrade. I now have a 7800X3D, 32GB DDR5-CL30, and a B650 board. Runs very nice and its an absolute monster of a system now. I bought a new car with the money made at work, though that purchase was mostly out of necessity to get by in day-to-day life. I doubt I'll replace the computer soon, I'm a bit tired of computers (using it at work), gaming doesn't feel the way it used to anymore and I love being lazy in free time more than ever. I'm dead after work and weekends are too short. Gaming would maybe be the only reason to replace the old computer, but I have too much old games and I'm not sure there's anything new out there for me anyway. On 1/18/2024 at 8:46 PM, XPerceniol said: No I did mean anti-social. Hm, https://www.verywellmind.com/asocial-vs-antisocial-differences-7555163 Edited January 20 by UCyborg 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
XPerceniol Posted January 20 Author Share Posted January 20 (edited) 25 minutes ago, UCyborg said: I doubt I'll replace the computer soon, I'm a bit tired of computers (using it at work), gaming doesn't feel the way it used to anymore and I love being lazy in free time more than ever. I'm dead after work and weekends are too short. Gaming would maybe be the only reason to replace the old computer, but I have too much old games and I'm not sure there's anything new out there for me anyway. Yeah, sort of in the same boat, Gonna hang on to my two towers until they are totally dead and I play lame games anyway now. I'd rather use my Atari Plug & Play 10-in-1 Joystick Game as I enjoy the classics. I also love being lazy and watching my DVD collection of silly (mostly silly) horror movies. Believe it or not, I can enjoy a horror flick and feel worse watching a drama or love story. I do not enjoy violent and demon possessed horror movies. They are bad! Quote "I'm not sure there's anything new out there for me anyway." Could/would you explain what you mean by that statement? 25 minutes ago, UCyborg said: Hm, https://www.verywellmind.com/asocial-vs-antisocial-differences-7555163 Wow even my therapist has never brought this up and explained the difference. I guess I'm more asocial then according to that article. I very much appreciate my own company and I can find solace in solitude. I was not this way when I was young and I needed people around me and I had that, but they were mostly bad people sad to admit such; but now, if someone said I could have friends stabbing me in the back, wanting to borrow money I don't have, wasting my time burdening me with their drama, I'd gladly take my plant and My movies. Some people can't even walk alone and I wonder why ... I don't feel alone when I walk *with* myself. Today I walked a mile and 1/2 as I do now every day (almost) and I prefer to not even bump into people, but if I do, I will smile and be cordial with a pleasantry. Thank you for pointing this out to me @UCyborg asocial has much less stigma than the term "antisocial" Have a good one. Edited January 20 by XPerceniol Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
UCyborg Posted January 20 Share Posted January 20 3 hours ago, XPerceniol said: Could/would you explain what you mean by that statement? I meant to say any new games, though there probably are and I'm just throwing out negative assumptions again. 3 hours ago, XPerceniol said: Some people can't even walk alone and I wonder why ... They're social butterflies I guess, something our kind will never "get". I've had bits of social life in the past, but it's all gone now. I also get sick of my own company at times, but can't escape from myself. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
XPerceniol Posted January 20 Author Share Posted January 20 1 hour ago, UCyborg said: but can't escape from myself. That is why I always say .... wherever you go; there you are. Yeah, we can't escape ourselves. I consider myself to be multifaceted and I can separate myself from myself. I often when by myself say "We" (we can get through this - today we're gonna do such-and-such) and I feel I'm with myself and even when by myself. But don't get me wrong, I get it. Being left up to our own devices sometimes can lead us down the rabbit hole. I don't profess to always be my own best friend ... sometimes my worst enemy. But its just little old mister blobfish against the cruel world and I must make the best of it; somehow. Some day I (do) wonder where that somehow comes from ... I think I use distractions. Projects here with the browsers and other computer related stuff is (sometimes) a healthy distraction, but not always. https://www.verywellmind.com/coping-with-emotions-with-distraction-2797606 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
XPerceniol Posted January 22 Author Share Posted January 22 On 1/20/2024 at 6:19 PM, XPerceniol said: That is why I always say .... wherever you go; there you are. Yeah, we can't escape ourselves. I consider myself to be multifaceted and I can separate myself from myself. I often when by myself say "We" (we can get through this - today we're gonna do such-and-such) and I feel I'm with myself and even when by myself. But don't get me wrong, I get it. Being left up to our own devices sometimes can lead us down the rabbit hole. I don't profess to always be my own best friend ... sometimes my worst enemy. But its just little old mister blobfish against the cruel world and I must make the best of it; somehow. Some day I (do) wonder where that somehow comes from ... I think I use distractions. Projects here with the browsers and other computer related stuff is (sometimes) a healthy distraction, but not always. https://www.verywellmind.com/coping-with-emotions-with-distraction-2797606 Its the intrusive thoughts that I have to deal with that hurt the most. Anyway to be more cheerful. Hmmm ... on that note this reminds me I need to watch My Bloody Valentine again - both the original and the remake. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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XPerceniol Posted January 23 Author Share Posted January 23 (edited) Dealing with horrible brain fog as of late. Please make sure you are using a good quality headphones/speakers when listening to these type of meditations, and remember, you only have to give it usually about 10 or 15 minutes to benefit from it and no need to go to the full extent. Edited January 23 by XPerceniol Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
XPerceniol Posted January 24 Author Share Posted January 24 (edited) Just curious, do these type of videos resonate with others here? I only ask because I don't want to post them if they make people feel worse. They help me some of the time and sometimes not - its hit or miss for me on these videos. Anyways ... getting ready to head out for my daily walk today. I hope everyone is doing fabulous Lol. Edited January 24 by XPerceniol Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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