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[XPerceniol]

^Right back at ya

[mina7601]

2 hours ago, XPerceniol said:

^Right back at ya

Thanks

[XPerceniol]

I don't know, like, hate to say it, but, I have some serious concerns and doubts regarding 2024 ... so best (I think) would be to keep the expectations low to avoid disappointment and despair. That being said: I don't know what to expect, and, if I think too hard about it its gut wrenching and VERY unhealthy.

Edited December 27, 2023 by XPerceniol

[XPerceniol]

[XPerceniol]

But, then again, I'm the one always "preaching" that we should live for today ... so will try to follow my (own) advice and do such, because yesterday is over and tomorrow hasn't happened yet; that being said, hard to avoid going down the rabbit hole of worry.

[UCyborg]

Could pretty much agree with this every new year:

Better not watch the recap of 2023 xD. New year, same bul*****, possibly some new thrown on top.

Money may not buy you happiness, but if you're one of the bastards with a lot of it at your disposal, you can at least buy your way out of a lotta bullcrap you have to deal with otherwise.

[XPerceniol]

^So true, but here we are after as whirlwind of a year (not all bad).

Reaching back to my 20's and recalling I'm not even (a little) close to whom I am now and I'm jaded.

Ok, enough.

Any new years resolutions?

I'll start.

Just want to take it day-by-day and not worry (so much) about things beyond my control.

[UCyborg]

32 minutes ago, XPerceniol said:

Any new years resolutions?

Ha, I'll be happy if I manage to clean up my downloads folder the next year.

 

[XPerceniol]

The dreaded morning TV is reminiscing over 2023 ... HURL 

[XPerceniol]

In my 20s I used to always be 'out and about' and partying to the hilt in NY most at gay clubs ... but now I just look forward to the quiet with my plant and hope the other guys will get lost and I'm COMPLETELY sober now and never EVER touch a drop of alcohol so I'm no fun anyway. I presume most of the people I surrounded myself with are dead, some of them weren't exactly living a healthy lifestyle. Me ... sex was never for me - couldn't care less about it then or now. Besides that never defined me and there was A LOT more to me than that and even when I tried to work.

Regrettably I drank most of my 30's and part of my 40's away (alone by myself) into agoraphobia and complete isolation as I decided I don't like people . Can't get that time back so I'm stuck in a, I don't know, I don't know, a time warp. Overall I'm (while not happy) at least content, but I feel EMPTY AND DEAD INSIDE.

Never know our expiration date and my body shows the damage done plus a fatty liver, Low T, as a result. I feel my heart is in the shape it is bc of too much of smoking crack and psychedelics to MASK THE IMMENSE PAIN WITHIN. 

EDIT:

Thanks God they're playing Nightmare On Elm Street so I can avoid the news.

Oh and BTW:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jesse_Walsh

n his book Monsters in the Closet: Homosexuality and the Horror Film, Harry M. Benshoff[16] references Jesse, stating the following:

"Unlike the other films in the series, the protagonist of Freddy's Revenge is a teenage boy, one whom Freddy spends most of the film trying to "get inside of." Jesse is played with a sweet gay boy aura by actor Mark Patton, who played the preoperative transsexual Karen Black in Robert Altman's Come back to the Five-and Dime, Jimmy Dean, Jimmy Dean (1982). Jesse is introduced as the new kid in town, a loner and an outcast, and spends much of the film in his jockey-shorts, sweat glistening off his bare chest as he repeatedly wakes up from Freddy Krueger-inspired nightmares, which, as at least one author has noted, also suggests the imagery of AIDS-related night sweats."

In The Queer Encyclopedia of Film & Television, Claude J. Summers[17] stated:

"...Nightmare on Elm Street 2 (1985) features both an out homosexual in the form of a sadistic gym coach (who is brutally dispatched in a Grand Guignol shower scene) and a coded/closeted queer boy, Jesse (Mark Patton), whose outsiderness attracts the attention of the monster Freddy Krueger (Robert Englund). Harry Benshoff reads the scene of the coach's death-which occurs through Freddy's inhabiting, that is, penetrating, Jesse-as a version of homosexual panic that results in Jesse himself, an extension of the 1950s theme of the sophisticated older homosexual taking charge of a vulnerable, wavering younger man."

https://bloody-disgusting.com/news/3746983/elm-street-2-star-mark-patton-needs-our-help-in-receiving-medical-care/

Glad I wasn't sexually active; for sure!

2nd EDIT:

Not sure why I'm even thinking this way or that far back - its history and I'm here right now today despite being dealt a "bad hand". I don't know. 

3rd EDIT:

So I don't think we all found our ways (meeting here) here by accident is was serendipitous to MSFN and our members; currently even if its to learn both form the good and bad.

Edited December 29, 2023 by XPerceniol

[XPerceniol]

https://www.daysoftheyear.com/days/dec/30/

[XPerceniol]

[D.Draker]

On 12/29/2023 at 4:45 PM, XPerceniol said:

"...Nightmare on Elm Street 2 (1985) features both an out homosexual in the form of a sadistic gym coach (who is brutally dispatched in a Grand Guignol shower scene) and a coded/closeted queer boy, Jesse (Mark Patton), whose outsiderness attracts the attention of the monster Freddy Krueger (Robert Englund). Harry Benshoff reads the scene of the coach's death-which occurs through Freddy's inhabiting, that is, penetrating, Jesse-as a version of homosexual panic that results in Jesse himself, an extension of the 1950s theme of the sophisticated older homosexual taking charge of a vulnerable, wavering younger man."

Thanks for reminding! Now I know what I'm gonna watch these New Year holidays, Ill rewatch the whole Freddy Series, including Freddy vs Jason! Excellent movies.

Happy New Year!

 

[D.Draker]

Oh, and sorry, I'm outta likes.

[XPerceniol]

One more day left to 2023.

Any thoughts? Anybody at all with anything at all.

Edited December 31, 2023 by XPerceniol