XPerceniol

....correcting mistakes, I write as it comes to me and that is not without errors ...

Nothing to sorry about, patience is virtue. Just happy you came back here and decided to read the thread and talk to us ... as I said, we are not professional, but people do care and mean well (hopefully). I (and others) don't always get it right, or say the right things, but I try and hope something I've said will help others. I haven't read or processed your posting properly and will write when I can think clear (which rarely happens ... hehe) This is good you have found somebody that understands your condition (hope that is ok) I hate to say we are ill (Illness or even disabled).. whom the heck wants to be "normal" whatever that is, anyway. NO such thing as normal and is others profess to say they are to to you, shrug it off, dust yourself off and never stop trying. Ugh ... that is a bit difficult seeing her family is transphobic, and while I do want to say: I (no longer) respond to private messages unless from admin or moderators now (please understand my own anxiety and conditions), however, I'm certainly willing to talk about it; but again, I don't always know the answers so hold me to it in court =P Of course you do, we are all human and always don't know the right things to say to others, but be honest and true and genuine ( don't mean to trust without other "blindly" - trust is earned, people need to gain your trust and this where people have let me down in my own life) and I don't mean advise you to be fake or lie, just protect yourself and be cautious. Always forgive yourself and allow others to accept when you ask others for that forgiveness, people that are true will know and also understand, those whom don't aren't worth you time. Period! Just in case other haven't figured it out yet, I'm also LGBTQ+ while those labels are often put into place by others to box us into certain corners to consider us outcast, they can sometimes be helpful to better to understand your genuine self. Spending whole life pretending to be something you are not will be recipe for sadness and mental and physical illness. I'm 50yo and those labels don't help me much, seeing I'm a loner and sex IS NOT for me. Yep, you read that right, only 3 times in all my entire lifetime and its not for me, but I am gay and asexual male, but not pansexual or Non-binary, or genderfluid, just male old fart. I look like I fell out of the ugly tree and hit every branch on the way down. I'm not a pretty sight ... HA! Anyways, will write more later after my camomile tea ... not that being something a guy would call masculine ... OMG .. who cares just be YOU! You sound like you have your head screwed on - which is more than I can say for myself, most days; and you seem able to handle this (rather difficult situation) and please be careful and understanding to your friend given her family is not accepting for whatever reason(s), Please don't feel as if you can always handle the weight of the world on your 2 shoulders all the time and you need to talk to others, and sometimes being (somewhat) anonymous on the internet makes that difference to be better able to talk, seeing in real life, people are not (always) accepting as we are all supposed to be robots and the same. Always consider yourself to be lucky we live in country that we are not killed for being "different". Will write more later Please feel free to post if you need to and if you do seek out support on the internet (via forums), just be very VERY careful to not tie in to computer forums (such as here), just be careful but I'd bet you are careful already and know more than I about it. I don't worry as much about trolls seeing why waste time with me, just here and XP forum now, no other places and I keep to myself and hide away from the world and further isolate and that (partly) turned (or aggravated) my severe agoraphobia ... sometimes up to 15 days inside and I wouldn't want this on anybody, but now, need to recover and recognize what I'm dealing with and make the best of it, but I'm still falling short of my progress and the setbacks have put me 1 step forward and 10 steps backwards. If I give into the fear(s) I'm starting the phase and continuing to feed the issue at hand, and my fears largely go hand-in-hand with my anxiety around others and social phobia, and while I'm very protected (if people only knew how much and well protected, now, due in part by my dearly perpetrated fathers wishes) I fall short, and when I fall, I hit the ground and stay down too long .... need to get back up. Will write more a little bit.

My OCD won't allow such, everything on my computer has to be aligned ... the buttons and taskbar has to be right or I go all wonky. I use the defaults in My Serpent and got used to it, but I can upload another pic of my computer but I'd bet people remember it. Not everything needs to be square, but (sorry, hard to describe) has to match up.

Thank you and I will give it a try later when I can think coherently, if even possible Lol :)

Hello ... Yeah, I know I'm a bit 'out to lunch' most of the time (working on it - work in progress). Same! I use 360 without extensions and locked down in large part thank to our friend D.Draker (sending well wishes to you and family - all be right with your soul) V12 have never been my 'cup o tea'. I was hoping at some point we would see and update for DCBrowser - I like it and it still works fine most of the time, but sometimes not, and have to use V13. Is is even possible to get it past 75.0.3770.100? I have both that and the previous build and see updates on the site but it appears to only be for windows 7 and up. Thank you for the hard work and what a pity these fine browsers have become an afterthought.

I do believe (declare) that this thread has served it purpose; so I would sincerely ask that anybody out there reading this to please disregard much of the content as mere opinion (everyone is entitled to at least that), but, again, nobody here is a "professional" or "qualified" to make medical decisions, and this is something only YOU and your doctor to make, and THAT decision to seek out mental health assistance is a very personal decision, while some might consider it to be "Scam", I do think I'm fairly secure in saying, it is NOT a scam. If you are in crisis or seeking help from others on the internet: Please be aware that much of others advice is "tainted" towards their (others posters/members) bias, so there is not such thing as "good advice" online only take what you read on the internet with a grain of salt and as for entertainment purpose. While I do agree, sometimes asking others for support can be helpful, if you are in crisis and feel vulnerable, I would tell you to please reach out for professional help. This can be in the forum of a crisis hotline or google for mental health "warm line" if not in an emergency situation. Otherwise, if you are feeling suicidal or feeling in a place that you would consider harming yourself or others, I would strongly suggest you contact emergency and consider going to the hospital. Period! It takes time and patience, but you can get better and recover, and don't EVER EVER EVER think what you are experiencing is "Fake" or "Fraudulent". So to those that reached out in this thread, please don't give up and continue seeking advice from others if this helps you, but if you feel fragile to others input, I'd suggest you avoid discussing mental health or physical health with others on the internet as that advice can be very dangerous and and detrimental to your health. Of course: Its All In Our Head". Sad but true and while you *should* be aware of the connotations, implications, and stigma of labels when it comes to what you are dealing with; don't let that every stop you from seeking professional help. You ARE so very worth it and there is nothing wrong with you! While you may struggle in other ways that others don't, there is a lot right with you and you can build on that to become the best version of yourself. You are simply BEAUTIFUL and pretending to be NORMAL won't help you. I will honestly say: After reading some of the posting myself, I think that time to take a very long break from the internet and forums as this would serve me well to focus on what I can change and try to let go and shift the focus on what is not within my control. While I'm not in a fragile state of mind, I can find myself feeling much worse after reading some postings, and while I do (and truly hope) they are well-meaning, I question that nature and tone that some posters, and being shot down by others is not helpful in any way and people might need to reflect before postings of such. Be well and manage as best as possible. There's nothing wrong with you.. not even the darkest corner of that beautiful soul that is you!

Try to be grateful and kind to others and yourself. Be positive and never EVER think you are DAMAGED or ABNORMAL in any way(s). Here's another one - be thankful, for you shouldn't change for others, only for yourself and to be the best version of yourself. Use whatever tools (medication and therapy) and learn better ways to cope so you can live. You (anybody and everybody reading) deserve to be find acceptance - accept yourself and whatever (so called) illnesses and disorders and start living. Today - right now!

Good thing Doctor Hannibal Lecter was taking new patients "Sanity" is overrated IMO .. right up there with being "Normal" and "Stable" ... in an abnormal, unstable and insane world; mind you.

Sorry, gonna just edit and delete this one.

While in large part that understandable, and they are all too quick to push pills, people need to know they need to put in the work if they (we) want to get better ;)

Again, wanted to like and agree but instead a reply is better. While good to know I'm not alone, wouldn't wish it on anybody else. Partly need to keep a better routine and I struggle in that department.

Definitely! Circulation is so important. Very helpful and hope you're doing well; yourself ;)

In fact, the only true way to get our lymphatic system going is through our movements. Must try to stand up straight and allow spinal fluid to move. Very had sometimes but laying around is awful and I'm guilty as sin.

I'll leave it then at the defaults as my graphic card is factory junk. Normally I don't us any hardware acceleration prefs because of this reason (mainly). Thank you guys for the information as I wasn't aware of those settings, but I see looking at about:support I need to also disable more as its been disabled already as my graphic card doesn't support and there are no updated drivers for this old clunker. dom.enable_performance;false dom.enable_performance_observer;false dom.webcomponents.enabled;false Guess will leave those as is then.

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Hi there ... I realize not what you are asking, but I had to end paid streaming services early this year. The good news, is: https://pluto.tv/en/on-demand https://www.plex.tv/ https://tubitv.com/ https://documentaryheaven.com/ (some videos wont work) Are still working Serpent Version 52.9.0 (32-bit) Build ID 20220730023424 And 360V11 and DC Browser ... but as @dmiranda wrote, for how long, who knows. Of course, those services may not be available depending on your location and hate to waste money on VPN just to watch movies. Not sure about (so called) Free VPN or proxy service as the only one I still use (rarely) is. https://www.kproxy.com/ Not sure anymore if you can trust others we used to use. Again, sorry if that wasn't very helpful. Take good care

My face cracks and I have 'crows feet' and 'laugh lines' from trying to smile so I gave up =P Kidding; of course! Lost a few days and thought it was Monday. This happens to me and memory seems to be worse (not talking computers) I'm doing ok today and NEED to get outside even if I take that chance that space debris will conk me in the forehead. Ugh ... hope all are doing better than I and I see I need (yet again) to play "catch up". Trying to clear the cobwebs after days is feeling mixed up to say the very least. But again, I'm fine.

We will feel better, this too shall pass.

Up-vote X10 ...

I'm going to assume (and hope) this was an attempt at humor Ya know, with the kind of luck I've been having lately, this could actually happen, I'll walk out my front porch and "space poop" will knock me out

Don't worry ... maybe try something else this weekend, switch it up, otherwise, just repeat of same results. I'm fine, don't worry. maybe set some realistic goals, I plan to do some cleaning. I'd like to get out and go for coffee this weekend and see the fish friends. Stuck inside for far too long, but, working on that. Hope you are well and @sunryze is enjoying vacation and will return safely and we will hear about it. https://www.betterhelp.com/advice/general/is-living-vicariously-through-others-dangerous/ i hope, he will return, but time away from the internet is healthy, as well. The last one was helpful as was previous. Hope it helps others. Be well as possible, be true, kind, and grateful as we can all too often overthink and be too mindful.

Sending well wishes and positive vibes to everyone; everyone, everywhere.

I was just about to like, but that would be odd to like your current situation, but it sucks to feel like that. For what its worth, today I spoke to my therapist and I feel much worse actually, and she said to just allow the intrusive thoughts to pass in cloud, and I'm trying to, easier said than done and I we just ended our session on that. Me too ... at spots this week I was happy *feeling* and enlightened, still enlightened by things and such, but that feeling of happiness has been replaced with negativity. Sorry, trying to make sense. Happiness *feeling* along with realistic views ... expectations is healthy, but when its replaced with depression this is where we need to take a step back and perhaps we are taking on others problems, I think this is what I've done, I took on others distress. Maybe we need to give ourselves a break from the sorrow that is around us. I'm sorry, but sort of struggling myself to be honest.

I usually do 2 tea bags of black tea with milk and cinnamon and a little brown sugar ... honey with my green tea ... enjoy coffee. The water here is bad and need some filter. Too much calcium and we get kidney stones.

I've got a coupon somewhere, 50% off a 1/2 a brain, might be in the junk drawer. ~~still off topic~~