XPerceniol

Sorry for choosing this thread, but it came up on a sear here and it seemed to be the right place to ask, as I myself, don't actually know the answers and these programs seems complicated even to me. Apologies if this was the wrong thread to ask; again, not for me I'm inquiring but I care and would never knowingly lead anybody astray.

Need to ask a question in here, not for myself, mainly if others are seeking (some level of) anonymity should people especially in repressed countries need to fee able to ask about sensitive topics or mental heal issues that would be considered "taboo". Not everyone care to "blab" their dirty laundry all over freely as I. I'm just wanting to be able to give better advice because in some places in the world, such things could cost them their lives as some rights we enjoy here are still criminal. The only things I can recommend is what I see here, and it would seem people have to pay, but how to pay without giving out real name? People should be paranoid in this day and age, again, I don't want to give people false hope that there is any such things as (truly) Anonymous. I'm fine, but I do find myself a little concerned about younger folks that don't know where to turn online; let alone in real life. Take good care everyone.

Understand and thank you for your input as often require others to bounce ideas off of which is something I do not have in real life. I'm removed from society and I don't even have any forum of social media other than this and the XP forum https://www.xpforums.com/find-new/posts No other, only these 2 I post. I STRONGLY do not recommend mental health support type forums, unless, you're: 1. VERY well protected with anonymous VPN and perhaps TOR depending on you level of paranoia (and that means DNS Query and all) 2. And if anyone were to decided to waste your time with trolls and improperly moderated (sometimes none at all) platforms, everything needs to be fake and nothing connected to YOU because they (those forums) ARE NOT safe; period! Even please use the same protection(s) regarding autism forums. At one point I was on many, but realized they are very toxic and make people worse as everyone feeds off on-another ... but, of course, that is not for me to decided and always your choice, just protect yourself and not all forums as honest as well maintained as MSFN. Yeah, Cancel Culture ... one size fits all cookie cutter world. I created this thread and even I at times wonder what this is?!?! ..... I supposed it is: "Think about your life" stuff." because sometimes it help me to reflect to process what I'm experiencing. I have an appointment with my therapist today in fact so we'll see. Nobody can "fix" us because we don't need fixing, I'm fine, your fine just the way we are, its about make it work given each persons set of circumstance. I completely respect that prefer to be more private and would never make anybody feel to share as I do. While I find it cathartic and as I said if something said/wrote make somebody else feel less alone than it was worth it for me. I do appreciate you popped in to say hello and glad your finding some projects to get interested in here - they are many others are working hard on and help is always appreciated. Hope this posting finds you and everyone well as this week is drawing to a close and a hot weekend is awaiting some of us. EDIT Until I know better from the veterans here regarding being safe to discuss sensitive topics online, I'm going to hold off on it so as to not lead people astray. For now, I'd just say, use caution and good judgement when revealing personal details that you don't want made public. Again, everything that was written is very vague in this thread so worry not for even a second.

VERY hard and it took me years but finally I'm true to myself and kind to myself and I'm not my enemy. Be kind to yourself. You are fine and only change for yourself and not others and people jump through hoops to 'fit in' and its only temporary anyway and you make your own way regardless of this popularity contest we see.

Good to know ... everyone understandably has times when they seek acceptance, not always easy these days and these times require we find acceptance within. I struggle with this but no longer expect to find like-minded people and try to appreciate the (very) rare accession I run into people that feel as I do regarding various topics; but for the most part, I consider myself an outsider and my dearly departed father always said there is nothing wrong with that. However, expect that when depending/relying (solely) on others for approval is risky and people have done great things in this world without approval of others and the mainstream society deems as expected. We are human ... appreciating and praise from others *can* give us steam and builds up (mainly) ego, rather than self-esteem. Importance bares little in the big scheme as fame is fleeting anyway. Sometimes more about timing to shine. Will give more thought and hopefully have something to say (sorry, not right description) our validation depending on other people reminding us that we are important to *them*, that 'in turn' lets us feel important to ourselves. I just want to say, I know that feeling or being torn apart. I do hope you would consider posting in here even if I'm not around in here if it makes you feel better, by all means. Others might also have advice or at least know you aren't alone. You not! Hypocrite; guilty as charged as I often forget and neglect to take my own advice, know I mean well and if I can give even a moment of hope to even a few I feel as I have purpose. See ... did you catch that? I just implied that I need to feel as if I'm helping somebody. We are all human, putting other people on pedestal is an easy trap and celebrities need fans, but look at how that sometimes turns out for them. I'm just managing day-by-day now. Seemingly I'm insightful, but I'm actually (mostly) "full of it" good advice that is. haha :)

ooo ... is this an "update"? I'm happy to use it if you trust it. I see your builds of both versions here as: https://www.dropbox.com/s/ld5dz2uwdowf1cz/360ChromePortable_13.0.2206_rebuild_9_ungoogled.zip?dl=1 (last updated: Jan 11, 2022) 13.0.2206 is what you posted in the first page, so you trust 13.0.2107? Downgrade seems better? I (as you well know) have stuck by V11, but will try this out to see and report feedback. Glad to see you again.

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Quite similar to my prior posting on another thread - the hard work that went into these browsers by our developers should not just become an afterthought. I still use arcticfoxie 360V11 and DC Browser and will continue to do so long as they works. V13 and 13.5 is still a great browser for those that have enough resources. Thank you @cmccaff1 and hopefully people won't just give up on Chrome for XP and these browser - I believe there is still work to be done, and perhaps they weren't advertised (pushed) enough or in the best effective way to get the attention of XP users. I always enjoyed limited conversations between myself and @NotHereToPlayGames, was always kind and helpful. I also found @Humming Owl to be helpful beyond this topic in other areas when helping me with my HP Printer one time. A lot or hard work and passion went into development and we can't let that fade into irrelevance just like that. Take good care everyone and be well

I agree 100% - the hard work that went into these browser by our developers should not just become an afterthought. I still use arcticfoxie 360V11 and will continue to do so long as it works. V13 and 13.5 is still a great browser for those that have enough resources. Thank you @cmccaff1 and hopefully people won't just give up on Chrome for XP and these browser - I believe there is still work to be done, and perhaps they weren't advertised (pushed) enough or in the best way to get the attention of XP users. I always enjoyed limited conversations between myself and @NotHereToPlayGames, was always kind and helpful. A lot or hard work and passion went into development and we can't let that fade into irrelevance. I'm going to also post to see if our other del @Humming Owl is still with us, also. Take good care everyone and be well :)

Understand and can relate, 'when it rains, it pours' and how true those words are. Its hard to have any strength to endure, let alone any enthusiasm when life (continually) deals you a band hand. I'm far from enthusiastic, dare I say pessimistic most time as of late. Just being honest, but not to invalidate or validate, just to let you know where I'm coming from as I sit here tonight dreading tomorrow, but for different reasons, of course. I have to deal with mental fog and that cloud so I know how it can effect our outlook and at times can feel bleak. I know this might not help, but this too shall pass, and I rely on that when I'm aware (please be aware of these times) so you can protect yourself when things seems hazy. But that is more about the aspect of what could be going on in our head, rather than situational. Give credence to strong situational influences and net underestimate the negative energy. Very strong and it pulls and consumes. Indeed, when this occurs, it can manifest in other areas, it to be expected. We are human. We cope, but how we cope is the key and I've made SERIOUS mistakes I admit that, but I can't go back. Just posting for now and am going to try to better explain distraction used properly rather than avoidance. I'm going to try, but if for some reason I'm unable, I'll try again please be careful about believing the "truth" from other peoples perspective or what society teaches, we are bombarded by so much now, we are in a strange word, you can't even during foggy moment acknowledge that much. Give yourself a break and hold on and hang in there. Oh not even going to attempt to correct my mistakes, just me.

https://shrinkrap.co.za/psychotherapy/who-would-you-be-without-your-suffering See that light ... never lose sight of it and never stop trying. Just try and try again and dust yourself off each and every time and continue. Yes, where you are you simply continue not start over from the beginning. We never stop here with our programs (speaking computers tech) and you see how when we put our minds to it, we make it work when others say its not possible. Continue climbing in spite and despite of the odds (seemingly) against us. From this day forward, I am going to continue because I owe it to myself to do so no matter how many times I fall a run lower. Not the same as taking breaks to recover and step back to see the picture, but when in motion, you can change course, but giving up means the light gets further and further away from your grasp. Again, no need to reply if you no longer feel comfortable and I do wish you well and you can do it against all odds. I'm living proof.

ah yes, I think I get it. We work towards our goal and fall and its all gone are are back to square one. How easy to fall into that way of thinking (trap), its soo very wrong to to think that way. Just because you fall doesn't invalidate where you are it was/is part of the process. Its (for me) more about how long you stay down and stop climbing. When I give in and lose energy or the will to climb, that leads to weeks and sometimes months or inaction and it feel insurmountable to get back up ... somehow, here I am when I could've given up, but I didn't. Question: Other than your friend group, do you have others to confide in beyond (I assume) you circle of friends? If not, that is certainly fine and worry not, most people are in that exact situation and you are not alone in that respect if the case.

I'm reading and here and will give this more thought. I write raw and I'm typing as it comes and the reason for typos. I noticed my errors and typos, but, of course, you read through them. Gut feelings *aren't* wrong and (the ones) that lead to impulsive actions are cause for concern (because) the initial "knee jerk" reaction com sometimes be an emotional one rather than rational one. Balance between, but we all have decisions we wish we could change. Please don't be fooled but others that pretend to be anything other than imperfect. We all screw up. Own it and repair today and learn from it. But again, you got it and I get it, I think. Again don't feel as you need to disclose anything you aren't comfortable with here, its quite ok to be very vague. I don't profess to know the answers, please understand, I've no wisdom beyond others well-meaning people out there, but, indeed, whom we decide to share our deepest thoughts/feelings with on a personal level can make us feel vulnerable. Its ok, and you will be ok. Thank you for posting as you did as you have without question are in better shape than I, as I have closed up and put of a huge firewall that will never EVER come down again with people and I trust nobody ever and never will again. Trust, yeah, we freely offer it sometimes to people that didn't earn it. Just because people have let me down 99.999% of the times doesn't mean this will result the same for you. You are young and learning, we all are. Not everyone will let you down, and when you open up to others, please expect sometimes to feel unpleasant. This will happen; always. Will reply further later, but I'm here.

Its because there is conflict within so the mind fights us. Will explain better later about acceptance. Very very difficult but there is reason. Again, I remind you: That "gut feeling" is not wrong, but be careful, as the gut feeling(s) that lead to impulsive actions are the once to cause concern. But, yes it is absurd and (truly) incredible the extent of how our minds process information much like a computer - when the OS become too giant and start to take over the user, this is a problem at least in my book.

Yes! Please be mindful about something or a situation being real (reality) and that can be blurred when nothing struggling to grasp onto something tangible. The latter can often lead us to question 'is Anything Real". Sure feels read, sounds real enough for me to consider it real, and while my (or others) truth might stray, we're al very much connected and only on rare occasion will you be fooled into mistruth or false belief(s). People don't always do what they say or say what they do, we need to gather up the information much like we do talking computers and programs and try to troubleshoot to figure out to where Therein Lies the Truth; therefore, a lie can become truth but we need to do the work or else blind followers we become. I'm not easily lead, once was but learned to question and now have come to a better understanding of where some of things people said come from ... not always a good place comes good advice, but also sometimes from a good place comes bad advice. Does that make sense?

Worry not about acting stupid, for me, its not an act. Ha! I know I could really go on forever but at some point, just seems, when all is said and done, its true that words alone without action is complaining and this isn't helpful. If I may ask (again, no need to reply if you don't feel comfortable), when you say "I have been taught from others" who or whom are you referring to? People along the way have proven to me to be quite disingenuous and some people change their opinion more than they change their underwear. Did you read my posting about trusting your "gut feelings"? You felt compelled to reply not knowing fully what this post/topic is about, but you did, and I assure you, your words and posting was NOT pointless. Will reply a bit later.

I just got up .. ugh ... a thousand degrees here today. I will watch those videos and reply a bit later. Thank you for your support.

Ok and Okay Forgot to mention: As far as a few other free streaming sites I use in addition to the ones already mentioned that work in uxp browsers. https://app.plex.tv/desktop/#!/live-tv Works just fine without the app on Serpent and 360V11 https://freeetv.com/ This is mainly for news and some stations work and some stations will not, but you know what they say about a "free lunch" ... EDIT: Better late than never! When you head over to plex (the link above), I'm using in this example: Version 52.9.0 (32-bit) Build ID 20220701004211 No Live TV Sources Enabled - this is because my computer isn't detecting a smart device TV - I do not own one. This error goes away after 5 seconds which brings up a new prompt to select your favorite streaming service. Simply click the "X" and you're good to go ;)

Please - make no mistake - its is easier said than done. When I woke up last night a wrote all that (yeah, I think I remember Lol) I was still reaching back to the past trying to resolved situations that can't be changed. Hope this makes sense. Sorry, I just don't care much for labels in general as they are often to group misfits together so we can be dismissed as "Traumatized People" or "Damaged Goods". Of course, we are all "Effected" people by our experiences and the past shapes us but doesn't define us. Whats the option, to live a sheltered life and close eyes once opened; you can't. I believe (personally) there are no accidents and people cross paths and situations happen for a reason. Would I (truly) go back, no, wouldn't want to, just want to improve starting today. Today will be yesterday tomorrow and somehow have to learn without becoming... Oops, when I write, its sitting here writing and backspace in the reply box as its comes to me raw and I lost my thoughts. This happens and is to be expected. My therapist often gets me back on track or allow me to trail off depending on the seriousness of the topic. So I will hit "Submit Reply"

We're all just suffering in silence and making our way the bet as possible. See, I don't want to change - there is nothing wrong with me - I'm fine just in opposition and should expect nonetheless. It's natural for me to be kind to otherwise as was (will never be) a jerk. Learned than my dearly deserted father. He just said know when to fold em, son. Miss him deeply. Just (at least not if not true to other) be true to yourself and accept yourself and there no harsher language to cause you hurt than you own - try creative criticism Rather than walk around with rose colored glasses, just see the balance avoid too negative or cynical towards others and embrace differences. People are not cookie-cuter copies and should be robots, but, see this struggle with people trying fit/blend in to what society distastes I'm grateful for so much .. dare is say blessed. Life could have taken a different turn and be in group home, but with assistance I can lead an independence lit. I don't want or desire anything. Win the lottery would be awesome but i don't even play Lol The key for me is: to (and I recommend to others) be mindful of our situations(s) but don't get stuck and parallelized, seek our even small changes to improve you existence.

Least don't feel bad about posting too much, the sub forum doesn't count toward post count We'll see unless this gets closed I would understand. Be careful when reading seeking answers online, sometimes, what appears to be sound advice isn't coming form a good place and I stumbled across this . I'm have a serious issues with labeling people as "Traumatized People". However, there is some truth to hiding from your own self. Exterior Vs Interior ... a little of both to complete the being as when missing in other areas we do what we can to work on other areas. Hope that made sense - likely not. The past IS NOT alive - its gone. Thinking back to even a second ago and you're already losing time. You can't go back, lord knows I wish I could ... not really. Its today regardless of toll it took (sorry, struggling) to be here past it. worse for the wear we crawl. That being said: Always trust your "gut feelings" I'm alive today because I never ignored them, they are there in the form of anxiety but not to avoid reality but to better be prepared and have learned from that 6th sense. You (we) are not asleep at the wheel, only we can regain control the our reaction to the processes (not the processes themselves), rather, be better at seeing the warning signs earlier so not caught off guard. Will need to finish though later, but numb and desensitized are not the same and we (I, myself, often) confuse the two. I feel bad about the poor grammar but this was/is very raw and I didn't correct too much to remain genuine.

Maybe I'm WRONG and I'm opposite of reality. Perhaps: 1. I'm too Kind and saved no kindness for myself. Nice guys Finnish last, or so they say. 2. I'm 100% genuine in a fake word. This is to be expected especially to those on "the spectrum" and things are always taken latterly with little grey area. Sorry, the correct words are escaping me and I could fail somebody reading. 3. Positive, not so much, just accept it - ebb and flow. 4. I'm grateful for what I have and wanted (see .. bad to use past tense) hardly anything and expected little in return as I put my entire self. ^Warning, this is a dangerous downturn thinking patter, try to avoid and distract until better. "Wanted" means too late as "Expected" and "as I put". Should be, going forward, I''' be grateful for what I have and what comes to me and expect the unexpected and still put in 100%. 5. I'm too mindful, but can't go back and pretend its a rose garden. Okay.. 6. People say.. What goes around comes around - I don't believe that anymore. Maybe when I'm gone it will come back around, but doubt it. Everything people say ... Gawd I sound like George Carlin and bitter for falling for the lies. Sorry guys, maybe just needed to get get some s*** out or something. Hope Y'all doin' better than I. Sucks to be prison to own mind. Please take anything I say with a grain of salt.

Okay .. I'll need to connect again to what I've become disconnected which is awareness and repair broken spirit. Okay .. appears to people reading my postings would think I'm cheery ... just pushing powering through the pain, I guess. Somebody is coming by today and I will have to go outside, I can go for walk, but then the entire time, can't wait to get back inside. Yeah, is what it is, people overcome much worse. Will check in in another few hours as I'm getting dressed almost every day stay in sweat pants, but I'm OCD about cleanliness. People scare me, I think, and I don't see things will get better, don't know even what "better' would be anyway. This is IT and here we are ... most important, I'm still (stuck) here for some reason, I guess.