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https://www.almanac.com/content/first-day-fall-autumnal-equinox Its starting to look this way and I LOVE it so much

Enough about me, I'm getting better. How is everyone doing?

Ok, those were quotes, but just from me personally, its very hard sometimes to recognize light from dark energy because the dark energy is inviting and enticing and fools us to weaken and remove love and replace it with hate and anger, which 'in turn' caves in on itself. Some people weren't so luck and ended their own lives (which is what dark energy is hoping for so you see no hope). Also, sometimes, what appears to be good is wolf in sheep's clothing. Sadly when one cannot tell anymore between the two, best to remove and cut ties with all and the good people will return, and if not, this was "meant to be". That being said, I would not repeat or go back to as that is the past and its dangerous to become wistful. We aren't supposed to miss our past because it is gone. Sorry guys, I realize I am making little sense, not that I ever made much sense to begin with. Hope you can see where I'm coming from, at lease. Sometimes, people are meant to enter our lives only for a short periods (of time) and we desire to hang on too long and miss out on new connections even if that is mean to better appreciate our own company. I'm closed off and reclusive so I'm no person to speak. I don't know, better to guard ourselves and never allow anybody in or continually be hurt by people. I don't know anymore, but I'm not in shape to be with others and require peace and quiet that others don't have that luxury and life is hectic - boring can be ok. This is not the problem for me, being "social" isn't all its cracked up to be and trust me I wouldn't want anybody knocking at my door. Editing..... I'm so lucky for the people that have entered my life because it was to teach me, but I still question it, but here I sit at 50 when I shouldn't be here, so my "gut feelings" haven't let me astray.

Spiritually speaking, of course, meaning we are not just skin an bones.

I definitely feel, although not speaking religion, we are all meeting here for a reason and there are no accidents. https://www.learning-mind.com/cosmic-connections/

Reading and I felt your prayers and positive energy so sending such worked and this why I'm back and only here for now until I get some strength.

Thank you so much, guys. So sorry I've been MIA. You're feelings were/are right, I've not been doing too well, but I'm trying to get back up. Hard to explain, just messed up, I guess. I'm sorry if I caused for concern, but it means a lot to know you care. Sending positive vibes and only good energy, trying to make no room for the dark to take hold and the only way is so allow the light in and I've allowed the dark to pull me down. Have to mindful that the darkness can turn you sour and evil, but I'm not evil and the love inside me is strong enough to get me back up because there is sickness going around and its strong and sometimes. [still finishing shaky and disjointed thoughts and will edit] Wishing everyone well ... means so much.

I'm a bit (more than a bit) frazzled if I'm being honest, but I'm hanging in there, hope you are well and good to see you here

I also have this question - is there a way to improve or update V11? I also don't like V13 but have had to use it with nothing running in the background and still it slow ... version 12 to me is useless and I'd rather user DB Browser. You could try that and see if it helps any, but I feel like the devs have abandoned them and there will be no further work on these chrome browsers ... its a pity.

I also see the same with Mypal68

Since we're in this thread: DC Browser is still working quite well :)

You know, I've discovered as I've grown older, I don't crave meat as much. I'm not vegetarian as I eat anything accept most of the time, but could do well with other protein sources.

Thinking EDIT: About what you wrote and advice ... your are right about other peoples pain and (sometimes) alll people wan't sometimes is someone to listen without judement. I can do that much. That's all I expect and never ask for help.

Thank you and this was the very first thing I read today when turn on the computers and I needed to be reminded of this. Think negatively in advance and predicting the future (we can not do) worry in advance only is burning hole in stomach. I'm in better shape than some here and I need to realize they need direction and I need to try to be more positive. I mean I smile at them and will say hello (sometimes), but its strange here and everybody keeps to themselves. I need to be positive and cautiously optimistic, or I am (unknowingly) spreading this disease and poison that is going around I will be MINDFUL and GRATEFUL for what I do have now - those I need to work on - I'm already TRUE AND KIND by default without trying.

I find it hard to relate to people and many people come and go here and many didn't last long. Hard to explain, people come to try to live on their own and sometimes only last a few months and I'm only of the oldest people here. Both age and seniority. Sometimes I stay hidden and don't even know until somebody tells me and others will ask me as they also don't know. The trouble is, unfortunately the sad reality is, its often homelessness for many and family is disowned them or written them off or can no longer handle they're loved ones anymore. My DD Father made sure before he passed I was at least (somewhat) set but that could all change if the pendulum swings too far as their is zero compassion and empathy for the disabled for the alternative. I get it, and in the end you need to help yourself and expecting others to help when you are at your worst is non-existent anymore. Society is become heartless, and FOR THE LIFE OF ME ... I don't see how people can be ruthless. Sure they would love to for us to vanish and go away, but there are good people have have been either born with unenforceable circumstances and in need of assistance. Honestly, sometimes, like seems like some cruel joke.

Sorry, I maybe am not understanding you, this happens to me so it might not be you. I'd rather not assume and seeing your edit reads "its something else" this has me concerned I might not be communicating correctly. Not sure what you mean about understanding in the "first degree', but I think you mean have to understand "literally" or "figuratively" speaking. I don't mean to cause confusion or expect others to have to question as I'd rather just lay it out so people don't feel the need to question or read between the lines. I don't intend to mean to be conflicted. Sorry, again, and regarding falling, I meant that figuratively speaking, I don't usually fall, but only rare occasion from vertigo, but normally I catch myself from going down on the ground. Figuratively speaking when I fall or have a setback its bad and its very hard to get back up (pick myself up to carry on) but I eventually do because the will to survive is stronger than to become victim. I will write more and you're right about communicating online but I'm socially inept and struggle and don't usually speak unless spoken to first, sad to have to admit that. Just eating dinner and will get my mind right after a few days of confusion. I've not said much this week and I didn't feel I was clear thinking and still rely on others to recover and that is not completely independent but....

Its a game and by nature the very refusal and denial of this psychopathy puts one in the 'line of fire' and at odds with what are considered now to be social norms. People (if not careful and mindful) and easily become "programmed"

Good read! I feel as is people exhibit signs that even the (so called) professionals miss, but those of us that are supposedly mentally ill area quite same in comparison. I've always noticed this in people but didn't know until far later in life that people play mind games and sometimes their wold revolved around their delusion(s). Will explain further.

Good to know, I'll avoid that one and write that one off should I need to be secret spy

Hi, my friend, I'm reading this new, very interested in this topic. Will respond and read your other posting and I'm so happy you created this thread. Your support means a lot.

I didn't know that as I've used their web proxy (and turn off javascript globally in the browser). https://www.vpnbook.com/webproxy Is that considered to even be safe anymore? I hardly every use them anyway. but good for others to know, or is is false sense of (so called) privacy Thank you

Ugh ... I had to edit to abide by the rules. Very hard to not talk about it when reality is hitting you upside the head but this is a computer forum and I'm "grateful" that we still have it and I'm "mindful" that and appreciative that the staff allowed off-topic posting and threads here. Hopefully everyone is doing better than I right now.

Thank you so much and I'm sorry was not functional yesterday and hardly even remember it and though it was still Sunday. This happens to me and I'm much better and enjoyed 2 cups of tea and am trying to get back up again. I do use ear plugs and, luckily others here keep to themselves, but one guy was hospitalized for well over a month and he doing better be I can tell heavily medicated. Yes, they need to control and limit the news because its so very toxic right now and they are scaring everybody, me, just not in the same way as we all have our own issues. I don't know what would happen to me if I was "dropped" from the programs but I know from a few guys on the street that there just is no help for some. Some guys tell me they were told some people are "beyond help" and this is sad reality. [edited - not allowed to talk about politics] Sorry, everything is a mess now, and I need to just take it day-by-day at this point and try to just get up and be functional. Very easy to fall and I fall hard and crash. It didn't help I had a seizure that I'm fighting very hard to explain and I was talking to a younger fella that I run into and he also said the same and I just said to him, its better to be less medicated and he agreed. Will write more late, but at the moment I feel pretty good, surprisingly.

This is very good advice ... I don't use a vpn but will try on 360 v13. I also allow CF for my queries but am wondering if that is a good idea anymore. Does a vpn extensions also change to their dns. Sorry, I don't know much about this and am learning myself. Take good care