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XPerceniol

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  • 3 weeks later...

I don't know. Don't know. Sort of struggling to accept my reality, but if I don't, I'm screwed until they cremate me. Have had to limit news (almost noting at all) and what I watch on TV to mundane programing and movies unless I'm easily triggered into severe depression and despair. I don't know.

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I live a humble simple life. Must appreciate what I do have ... 2 working computers and a modest wardrobe and cds and dvds and 2 nice plants to keep me company. I don't feel like I need anything else, nothing else would make me feel better. I feel incomplete and empty inside and its showing on the outside. Now to add insult to injury and only add to my anxiety I feel as I'm doing something wrong by using Thorium as I read that browser developer is infringing on Supermium which is paid and I can NOT afford to purchase anything at this point as I have spare cash to buy diet coke on my walks so now I don't know what to do anymore. Likely just stick with 360 Redux until that day comes and just go with Linux completely if these computers are even still working - they're on their 'last legs' and barely hanging on - like me. Its been said they would like all of use to be on phones only and I'm fighting it - I don't like phones and don't want a smart phone. They allow me to use a computer but the catch is I can only have 1 working at a time and this Dell 745 Optiplex is the better of the two so I rarely fire up the Dell Dimension anymore only to update Mypal68. I guess, Like, I don't know, other priorities are more important like my health. Sort of been trying to taper off the Clonazepam and one day be free from that monkey but there is never gonna be a good time and my anxiety and stress levels are through the roof; currently. My doctors are working with me on this and they know (full well) what I'm going through but I don't want any more medication to be added to the list. I already feel Dumbed down enough already and flat and stunted, but my thought process(es) lead me to dark places of hopelessness and we don't know what to do about that and my Derealization is not managed and I can't tell between that and this crazy world anymore. 

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I think I need to stop thinking and just 'be" and whatever happens happens, I'm just along for the ride I guess, how long, who knows. I don't know.

Gonna settle in with a chamomile tea and just be grateful and true!

About all I can expect lately. I'm automatically by nature Kind and Mindful (too much sometimes) but hard to be positive. I don't know. 

Could be worse! I'm fortunate in a lot of ways, I guess and need to see that for what it is, just struggling with my reality

Ok, peace out.......

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Thank you, it means more than you realize to me that you took the time to post those songs.

Walk Unafraid ... Stop Crying Your Eyes Out ... Bad Day...

And by those artists ...

Means a lot; will try.

 

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20 hours ago, XPerceniol said:

I feel as I'm doing something wrong by using Thorium as I read that browser developer is infringing on Supermium which is paid and I can NOT afford to purchase anything at this point as I have spare cash to buy diet coke on my walks so now I don't know what to do anymore.

Supermium testing versions on github are free to use.

https://github.com/win32ss/supermium/releases

Those that are on patreon are paid. Promised better support and updates. I don't know which exactly are used by that guy.

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9 hours ago, XPerceniol said:

Now to add insult to injury and only add to my anxiety I feel as I'm doing something wrong by using Thorium as I read that browser developer is infringing on Supermium which is paid and I can NOT afford to purchase anything at this point as I have spare cash to buy diet coke on my walks so now I don't know what to do anymore.

None of these frequently discussed (on MSFN) Chromium clones are worth losing a sleep over. Most of their code is copy-paste off Chromium, they don't have their own legs to stand on, without Google LLC, they are nothing.

10 hours ago, XPerceniol said:

I feel incomplete and empty inside and its showing on the outside.

I can relate. I think I should be making better use of my time here. How, I haven't a clue.

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26 minutes ago, UCyborg said:

Most of their code is copy-paste off Chromium, they don't have their own legs to stand on, without Google LLC, they are nothing.

Bingo!  I'd say "open source" but that seems to be a rib-jab of late, so "why bother", lol.

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Today,is a public holiday in Italy.
I decided to pay online the stamp duty (an annual ownership tax + payment fee) of my car.
On line the payment fee is lower.

I start the procedure with my browser.
2 consecutive SPID (at the second level of three levels) logins:

https://www.spid.gov.it/en/

that need to be validated by a security app in my smartphone.
Then the payment with credit card (my wife's) which has to be validated with a specific app installed in my wife's smartphone.

But the notification does not come.......

I have to wait at least 30' and an approval email to try my luck again.

I retry.....at the end I find out that the payment fee has increased to 1.5 euros compared to 1 month ago which was 0.95 euros.

How sad.
I regret a simple life without all these unnecessary complications.:(


 

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3 hours ago, NotHereToPlayGames said:

I'd say "open source" but that seems to be a rib-jab of late, so "why bother", lol.

It's because some write they are, but no one gives a link.

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4 hours ago, UCyborg said:

None of these frequently discussed (on MSFN) Chromium clones are worth losing a sleep over. Most of their code is copy-paste off Chromium, they don't have their own legs to stand on, without Google LLC, they are nothing.

But people, like Dave-H, are grateful these ports exist.

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9 hours ago, Sampei.Nihira said:

How sad.

I regret a simple life without all these unnecessary complications.:(

Same here! This new world is very sad in may ways and I was much happier without this mess.

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