XPerceniol

I hope you are doing well and feeling good, Mina. I've been at that forum for a minute and still no real friends over there, people have been friendly but I'm not exactly reaching out to others, even here I never send anybody a PM only read and reply sometimes. This is alright because people just keep to themselves nowadays.

Thank you and I hope this subsides soon. I'm overall maybe a little bit better - I'm getting outside more but getting up later and sometimes its hard to *throw* myself out of bed but then I get right to it and in the shower now. Mentally, some days are better than others, was going to say worse than others but I'm trying not to give merit when become ungrateful and negative for no reason. Soft of like, maybe, I don't know, still worried about things but taking it as it comes and perhaps throw a bit of denial in the soup. Just, sometimes ... ya know, sometimes I draw a blank and muddled I get.

I'm watching this and will watch all tonight. How are you doing, @msfntor ; I hope well and staying strong.

Thank you for sharing this. Got to eat chicken dinner today after a short trip to visit the ducks in the village - they have no flown south yet and might not they are saying and this spring could be strange as the climate is unlike what has been seen in January here.

That being the case (chrome was not meant for NT5.1) I've not had this BSOD with 360 V11 or 13 or 13.5. Not ever because I don't use hardware acceleration (gpu / wasm / webgl), this computer is way past its prime and the other Dell Dimension 3000 is not even usable at all with anything anymore unless I'm in no hurry. I'm just grateful it is still working at all and I don't want new things ... including my clothing as I prefer used goodwill clothing and shoes that have already been 'broken in'.

Can happen. That day has not come for me either few more years I'd be surprised if the hardware is still going. If I were to get something new (to me) I'd be willing to stick with windows and try 11 but would need to make sure I wasn't giving away too much, although, don't know what that means to me and I, I don't know, not much to get or give away, I'm an 'open book'.

Sometimes yes and sometimes no. I, I don't know, lose my commanding tones and my facial and body language does not match the speech. If I can just be myself and not feel like I'm being fake and natural things match better but still not "Normal" Yeah, I know, but that word has merit even to mock it. Sometimes I will say hello and hi and my voice will be so innocent tone that people will respond, but not always. When I go into public (rarely nowadays) I see the same people and most people within the first 10 seconds (if even that long) think I'm a escaped patient. Most people understand I'm a client. I'm nice (too nice) to strangers but good and bad come along. I, I don't know, give people mixed signals and I know better that as I gotten older. Fixing Mistakes <edit>

I've never use the block or ignore feat in all my years on forums because I read (lurk) and then decide to log in so I'll also reply to anybody and anything at all.

Hire ...

Universal Studios Florida was the only vacation I ever did.

New desktop wallpaper today.

Don't know what to say as I have music in my head all the time like free music streaming service for free. It started maybe like 8 or 9 years of age. I also see music notes. I have both auditory and visual intrusive thoughts. I can hear the tone and almost the key of the washer and drying and hum of the refrigerator. Am I the only one, or we the only ones? Maybe not bad @msfntor so long as you recognize its the brain. Just very aware I, I guess. I don't know.

OH that is too bad to hear, but glad you manage as best as can and glad you don't have central AD with ducts. Dehumidifier might help? Don't forget the clean the shower head overnight becomes moldy ... just pour some shampoo into and rub it in while in the show and let it run if you can't soak it. Doctors here don' script antibiotics often anymore. Try to cough up mucus and use https://www.mayoclinic.org/symptoms/cough/expert-answers/honey/faq-20058031 Aslo Guaifenesin is used to help clear mucus or phlegm from the chest when you have congestion from a cold or flu

SKIMS I think this game might be too hard, actually.

Sometimes when a song get stuck in the head you need to start with instrumenta or a cover without the lyrics because the more you ignore it, well ya know. I also thought he did a great job and the sound was awesome for live (assuming so)

Time...

Old friend ... Ugh; ugh; ugh ... been so long and only now did I even get around to reading AF and Oh good grief what a hot mess. Avoid and never return. Oh no ... you said you missed me and I didn't even know. OF COURSE I care about you still, you don't just share personal information and that goes away, I logged on and you were apologizing for something you didn't do. Why you felt like you did something wrong?? Like, why?? Well .. I know why because you've been hurt so many countless times and expect this. Dave, oh you kind man and old buddy.. We came so close to starting our own forum and I backed out and I was hospitalized during that time for depression and suicide and when I cam back it was gone and you never returned here and I see you're a guest so I don't know if you requested to be removed or purged after no activity. In any case, I no longer have your email and you also don't have mine as that is no longer active (mail2world), Dave.. Unless you read this or somebody points it out you'll miss this posting as I change my pw at AF to something I'd never recall and I can not (and will not) ever return over at that toxic cesspool. If you want to return here, I'd love to see you again and we have a lounge here and to a point, and you could post off topic, look at me and others - I have 2 threads in the funny farm. I also am locked out of MNP and will not likely return unless there is reason as I avoid mental health forums completely now. Just sending you all the well-wishes and love I know how to send via text and I sincerely hope you will join us or the XP forum even though you are likely using Win 10 or 11 you surely (but, please don't call me Shirley), know enough about windows or anything about computers. Crap, I feel so bad, but understand, of course. Dave, you knew me and I never lied or promised anything and I did tell you I would disappoint you without meaning to, so as you see, that became a reality. Its about 7:30 here and maybe you're up, but if not, of course, I'm in North East USA and usually turn everything off by 9:30 unless I'm an anxiety ridden mess and need to turn everything off earlier. In any case, You'll always have a special place in my heart and I remember your words - being 100% unstable in a 100% unstable world is "Normal". I'll never forget you and understand if you remain quiet from here. Sincerely Yours: Salvatore M

Fire ...

Fare ...

I walked today up and down the hill and to the bench and sat down and never once ran into people and I was (sort of) fine with that because I struggle to much with speech ... I realized when its worse, but I speak without a commanding tone and monotone. Strange.

Dinner wasn't too bad, nothing wrong with veggie pizza 1 slice and 2 others and I picked everything off the crust because I wasn't very hungry but need the nourishment. Now I'm going outside just to get away from people here as others here are gross. I mean, I'm singing loudly so that would mean I'm annoying to others but I heard a song and can't get it out of my head but smooth jazz will always remove a song when I need it to. How is everyone doing today overall?

Purfume or cologne is also not good for the endocrine system.

Holy smoke ... why is this not shocking me. They'd never cut a homeless person in half as that would double the rate. Hehehehe.......;)

Me either and I've been looking and can't find it on any other thread even ones that are frequent.