XPerceniol

I used to own a play station 1 and 2, XBox 360 and nintendo but they are gone and I only have now Atari and my computers. I use to play into the morning but now I can't and when I start something I have a hard time stopping it and that is a sign so now I turn everything off at night and disable the internet in case while medicated I try to log on and talk mess.

Yes I think so addictive personality because when you start a game should be able to stop and when you can not that is a sign but not you from what you say.

Enjoying this new. 8:30 on the dot and time to find something to watch was not a awful day, but. also, empty spots and questioning everything even part of the past that were sort of 'set in stone' I'm unsure that I happened. That is very bad when I question my life during that time. Very large haze that spanned over 2 decades or more and now I sit here at 50 are a big fog in between. I was never thirsty during my 30's and 40's and I admit I only have myself to blame for that and I accept my part in this reality I now find myself in. Question for anybody. Does anyone else question part(s) of the past and wonder W.T.F...? Good night everyone.

Hope you feel better soon and could be the pillow. I also don't stand up too quickly and I sit up first and then when I'm ready I stand up and only when I'm ready I start moving.

Posted over at XP and maybe people will return but I'm not sure of when eventually will come over there so we hold tight to MSFN. Make MSFN great (again as it is now - great and more great) Again ... lol

I agree completely.

What are you sorry for? You didn't do anything wrong at all.

Watching now ....

This was very nice and thank you for sharing this from them, have to shift the focus away from everything that is (seems) wrong and never walk with head down, I do this and its not good and I said hello today for about 4 people and they did acknowledge my existence, good start for today but feels like I'm relying on other people for permissions instead of self when self if together people compliment self instead of asking for help ask for (pray for) guidance. Be grateful for what you do have and I"ll try to not let the 'far right' take anything away, there is nothing to take but my clothes and computers and music. Be mindful and hopefully be true (to yourself and God - mother nature) and be kind; always and never hurt women and children and elderly. Supposed to take care of mother and father while they are alive as my father is in a better place and I KNOW this to be sure, not longer suffering with illness (mental and physical)

MAGA = Make America Great Again!

My reply was political, and while others might have agreed ... was better to avoid the MAGA republicans and let them be as not my place to judge to blame or judge.

There has to be something that could tie schizophrenia and bipolar together ... then OCD and anxiety would be hard to pinpoint.

............( Edit as this is a detox thread to avoid conflict.

cuckoo pills rob YOU of/from your own personality and deaden and dull to take away natural waves and turn everything flat. Very horrible; Indeed. There is nothing wrong with being a little (I'm more a little) Cuckoo, in fact, I should dig the old clock from the basement. Kidding, I don't have a basement LOL..... :p Oh ... don't be so shocked !

**Listening now** Very nice quality going through these HP speakers from 2005. I lost the keyboard and mouse because they used the old connection. Now just USB keyboard and I refuse to use wireless anymore unless I'm wrapped up in to foil. Hahaha....

Yeah good to separate it II think as why I left mental health sites as most people would write at their low spot and during crisis and people would support them but being around people always down brings you down, now don't get me wrong, friendship is a (supposed to be) two-way street and one-sided I can accept https://www.wikihow.com/Handle-a-Fair-Weather-Friendship fairweather friends can be good and I feel best when I helping somebody else and then I feel better but in the end I tend to fail others and only upset and disappoint people because people have expectations and when you expected something and that doesn't happen, you know, so put that in your pipe and smoke it. Medication was not supposed to be long periods of time and its a roller coaster better than now wallow and get outside and fresh air which I don't do much anymore. I eat just fairly well comparative. I do agree that its a cycle and I've paid for my doctors to renovate their houses many times over. Well, actually just a saying as I don't have any credis and I could never afford to pay my medical bills. I also don't get quality (not quantity either) sleep. Worry and the mind won't even calm down because, I don't know, I, just am not sure.

Cure ...

Skits ..

Yeah, that is the thing with my writing, when I'm low, it reflects in my word choices. It got quite dark at times, but from that darkness I was the light and here I am. Some days are dark days still despite all the therapy and pills and shots.

Well .. We'll see as its doesn't seem to work right, but will try DcBrowser later as no good on Mypal 68. EDIT: Not going to work so will keep looking as I need to have a phone. Not gonna happen.

Just Learning to "Live" So to start I'll put it in my profile but I've no idea what I'm doing. https://medium.com/@canaan.savvas

Listening now and hope for some natural healing sounds in the AM as its about time to go out for a walk today with another person as they don't want me alone but its not like I'm going to walk off and vanish. That isn't happening too much around here but in the west, Trans people are vanishing because they are usually estranged from family and they do unseen. Ok and okay I'm already dressed and a bit I must take back what I said above I'm battered but NOT broken.

Well I think he (Dave = Ponder) likely removed it himself and I respect that but I'm looking to also start a blog for mental health and brain malformation [Acquired Brain Injury] but I'd like to wait until I can find something not related to anything even if its some 1/2-assed blog I'll just connect it to here and the XP forum. I don't wan t a site that needs a phone so Please let me know if anybody discovers something for a few posting a day for me in a month.

Esp is you don't get much natural sun as like myself I stay inside too much and don't get sun and I take 400 of Vit D and small E in the multi. I also take aspirin per my cardiologist. I also am on blood pressure meds and try to avoid anything that treats a stuffy nose for only 1 or 2 days MAX and stop and try to use hot shower and clean the shower hose nozzle because at night turns to mold spores in the dark bathroom. I hope that made some sense - I'm not doctor I just play one on TV.