Well I'm stuck in a time-loop somewhere between the 80's and 90's (I'm not joking here) For some reason, even though I firmly believe live for today, most of "me" got left behind somewhere and I can not recapture it - maybe I shouldn't even try. Yep, the "old me" VS this existence of just existing rather than "Living". This isn't living! I DO really wish I could just say I was talking about computers and technology, but I really wish I had a time machine and I'd gladly go back and appreciate what I had; now, I have just 'this' with nothing to look forward to. So I carry on as best as possible, maybe that is what we all do, I don't know. Just saying whilst everything changes and everything comes to an end, where is this fresh start people speak of because I can't see it - gonna be 51 this summer and time is not my friend and I feel if I can't change my state of being I'll forever be stuck.
Sorry guys if that was depressing - just been struggling as of late.