msfntor Posted July 26, 2022 Share Posted July 26, 2022 (edited) 18 hours ago, XPerceniol said: sometimes looking back we can recognize those things we mistakenly labeled as 'thins we wish didn't happen' - 'bad experiences' - 'things we wish we could take back' were a lesson and a blessin. True... Edited July 26, 2022 by msfntor 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
msfntor Posted July 28, 2022 Share Posted July 28, 2022 (edited) Searching the truth: by THE GREAT AWAKENING 2 days ago " I've not laughed so much for a long time. God bless Mark Steyn!" Mark Steyn reacts to world leaders catching Covid after campaigning for the jab https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aghsC-TO6ME How do you best share information and find truth in the digital age? This is something I've talking to award-winning investigative journalist Aaron Maté about: “They Came After Me” Watch this video and let me know your thoughts ...please Edited July 28, 2022 by msfntor 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
XPerceniol Posted July 28, 2022 Author Share Posted July 28, 2022 Well ... I did just watch both videos and I"ll admit a bit hard at times, and sorry.. Quote I've not laughed so much for a long time I (certainly) wasn't laughing not even at it or them and I'm not professing to be a 'good person' or anything special. I'm just trying to live out the remainder of my life without vetoing again my own interests. http://justice-everywhere.org/democracy/how-do-people-vote-against-their-own-interests/ Like .. why would I do such when already fragile and skating on 'thin ice' why, WOULD I, remove my own (so called) socialistic programs that keep me able to live on my own when they (conservatives) would in a New York minute either have me or people like myself institutionalized or in a group home. I can get us wash my azz on my own and make a sandwich, but not always and there have been times when I've needed help. I could go on but perhaps shouldn't as I don't want to get banned from here. Again, sorry, don't see this laughing and I'd recalled Russell_Brand, but forgot just how smug he's become and this is a bit disappointing (again, not laughing) more disheartening but not saddened by other people anymore, only by situations. My own dreams and wishes have mostly been squashed. Re Russell Brand: Following the cessation of his use, Brand revealed through his stand-up performances that he introduced his drug dealer to Kylie Minogue during his time at MTV[209] and masturbated a stranger in a public toilet for a television programme.[210] In January 2014, Brand described his first experience with heroin as "blissful".[123] While I myself believe we are all spiritual (yeah, I said I wouldn't touch it, but hard to restrain) but when people think they are better, I have issue. I'm not saying he didn't make a good recovery but, honestly, he makes my skin crawl. Sorry and I'm saying this with and extremely addictive personality. Opiates scare me as that bliss almost became my demise. Cocaine was not issue. Other party substances I do not miss. I am very medicated but only prescription which, in some ways, is not better, but this is my choice and going inpatient has serious consequences and mostly capitalism would prefer the weak go away. My word, Ronald Regan would be rolling over in his grave if he could see the new GOP. Its ok, I now take it day-by-day and will roll with the punches and with the flow. Just by nature I'm against the tide but still need to with with the current as best to save the fighting for the younger and healthier as I'd be more of hinder to get involved. Laughing about people that are vaccinated that wound up getting CV anyway, I don't know, never fully believed I was protected, rather, just hope if I do get it it will be manageable. I could link video I've been watching where people were going under the ventilator diagnosed with CV and still professing to be a scam. Why do you say or can you say to people that are laughing at this. Sorry, I'm not. In fact laughing at others goes again the very bible most religious people quote from. I have 4 Bible right here in my living room. 1 was from my dearly departed father as a give and its very special. Proverbs 24:17-18 ESV / 72 helpful votes Do not rejoice when your enemy falls, and let not your heart be glad when he stumbles, lest the Lord see it and be displeased, and turn away his anger from him. Going to have to stop here for now. Be well as possible everyone. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
XPerceniol Posted July 28, 2022 Author Share Posted July 28, 2022 16 hours ago, msfntor said: " I've not laughed so much for a long time Same here ... haven't laughed in ages and easy to take life so serious and miss out. Here is something I still laugh at. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
msfntor Posted July 28, 2022 Share Posted July 28, 2022 3 hours ago, msfntor said: Watch this video and let me know your thoughts ...please Yes your thoughts are mine, of course, thanks! "I'm just trying to live ... my life without vetoing again my own interests." "...when people think they are better, I have issue." - drugs use (I don't saw this...) "Laughing about people that are vaccinated" - not good. "In fact laughing at others goes again the very bible most religious people quote from." So thank you for these comments, I couldn't express them better. I chose this video because it had a lot of views, that's all. After living my long term illness, I have changed my point of view on many things... so I am much less interested in world affairs etc., I concentrate on my family, and my close circle of friends where I could give something more to improve our short life... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
msfntor Posted July 28, 2022 Share Posted July 28, 2022 (edited) 28 minutes ago, XPerceniol said: Same here ... haven't laughed in ages and easy to take life so serious and miss out. Here is something I still laugh at.... - could you describe what he is talking about, his main thoughts, please? Thanks! Edited July 28, 2022 by msfntor 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
XPerceniol Posted July 28, 2022 Author Share Posted July 28, 2022 (edited) Gosh my atrocious writing ... I meant voting against ones own interests. But yeah, I also don't focus on world affairs as I can't help anyway and better to just stay out of the way Lol ... Rodney Dangerfield was a self deprecating comedian, but you DO see what others *may* not and you asked and I think you saw what is/was beyond the surface and that is pain. Most comedy there is pain, especially those that use themselves as the joke (as he did). I don't mind laughing at myself at all either. And, of course, I didn't in any way mean to undermine his (Russel Brand) recovery as he shares his struggles with drugs and openly talks freely about his mental health and new found spirituality and I don't think he is dead wrong at all, and even Jim Carrey will discuss it and prefers to go without medication. I more meant that Russel has (developed or fostered) a big ego - though I guess he is laughing all the way to the bank ... so they say on that channel. I do remember his back in his awful dark days. Nobody is without sin - hate the sin - not the sinner. And you're very welcome and so happy you're getting stronger and sharing as you do helps others. I do hope even 1 or 2 things I've written (we and others in this thread) helps someone out there to know they are NOT alone even if feels that way sometimes. I hope people are managing as I might do the "unthinkable" hahaha ... as I may allow this thread to drop if no others people need support and I might open up the Cafe again. I get the feeling others would post but are not because it is my thread and they feel it would effect me. You have helped me by returning to this forum. Edited July 28, 2022 by XPerceniol 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
msfntor Posted July 28, 2022 Share Posted July 28, 2022 32 minutes ago, XPerceniol said: Nobody is without sin - hate the sin - not the sinner. This is the essential thought of you in this post! Nobody is without sin - hate the sin - not the sinner. We both share the same point of view on many things, I am delighted to have your friendship. 35 minutes ago, XPerceniol said: You have helped me by returning to this forum. Finally I did something right, and it's for you, I'm glad to hear this, my friend. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sunryze Posted August 1, 2022 Share Posted August 1, 2022 well, im in that mood again. fun. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
XPerceniol Posted August 1, 2022 Author Share Posted August 1, 2022 I understand, not doing very well either, tomorrow's another day. Ugh :( 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mina7601 Posted August 1, 2022 Share Posted August 1, 2022 2 hours ago, sunryze said: well, im in that mood again. fun. Same here. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
XPerceniol Posted August 2, 2022 Author Share Posted August 2, 2022 I suspect just for recognizing that we feel something is amiss regarding our mood alone proves we are "Mindful". Ain't is great to be self aware Sometimes reflecting and overthinking can sour the mood. That being said, I'd be telling lies if I claimed to be (so called) 'stable' ... besides, what is stable anyway?! Like the waves on the ocean the tide rises and drops. This is my main issues (one of many) of being medicated on mood stabilizers and medications in general to make you flat zombie and emotionless. I'd also be telling falsehoods if I said my moods have gone from extreme empty to mania. Ugh. balance somewhere and when moods feel askew, I find best to now (over) dwell on it too hard. Dust yourself off and just keep trying is all. I'm just taking it day-by-day now as the worry alone is toxic to our health and well being. But yeah, I know I was reading something last night and watched a pretty good guided meditation vid, but can't find it right now, but it helped me untangle thoughts. Will try to find. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
XPerceniol Posted August 2, 2022 Author Share Posted August 2, 2022 I don't usually say anything or allow others to know, don't like parties, don't like cake and candles and everyone exhaling all over my food (OCD is awful nowadays). Phobia's are still pretty high around other people and I stated I wanted to be left alone today and they took other out but I stayed back and I'm totally fine. Got my good memories and music, I'm careful with nostalgia as it turns into regret(s) if I don't catch it, I do now. Some memories need to stay buried. Its now; today! Had to pinch myself because tomorrow is no guarantee. I did get dressed and made some coffee I have from Tim Hortons that I've been saving for some reason. Well, last night was a bit rough (as expected) and I reflected and decided to just chalk it up as time gone by and I was part of something that counted; sure, I got lost along the way and took several wrong turns, and at times I felt like giving up, but here I am. I turned in per usual around 10(ish) and did get to sleep (anxiety is skyrocketing as of late), and woke up a few times but didn't get up and turn anything on right away. Anyway, 49 year last night when I went to bed, trying to make sense sometimes of things that can't be resolved (no answers) unexplained but not unexamined (life). We are lucky to be here and alive. Its my birthday - 50 today! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
msfntor Posted August 2, 2022 Share Posted August 2, 2022 Best Happy Birthday To You, XPerceniol ! You're very young, my buddy! Special gift to you: Whitney Houston ! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3JWTaaS7LdU 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
msfntor Posted August 3, 2022 Share Posted August 3, 2022 On 8/1/2022 at 10:36 PM, sunryze said: im in that mood again. On 8/2/2022 at 1:06 AM, mina7601 said: Same here. 14 hours ago, XPerceniol said: did get to sleep (anxiety is skyrocketing as of late) WHY anxiety, why? Guys, what problem do you have, what disease is doing this? What do the doctors call it? I don't understand your sickness...maybe it's the result of violent games in childhood... Go and meet a priest, make him understand your problems, do penance... The Mississippi Mass Choir - I'm Not Tired Yet Well, this one is NOT tired jet, ...think why Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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